He was my first dog I could truly call my own. I got him while in college. A beautiful chocolate lab that would sear himself on my heart in ways I never knew were possible. He was the one constant through the ups and downs and major life occurrences of my formative adult years. He was the kind of dog that never left my side. He was only content if he was close to me. I couldn't move from one room to another without him following. He never let me leave his sight if possible. He wasn't a FT or HT champion but we shared many a day in a blind. Mostly he was my best friend.
He was 13 and the arthritis and cough had begun to worsen. I didn't want him to suffer so a couple weeks ago we set an appointment to have him put down and we decided to spend a long weekend with him. The vet upped his meds to keep him comfy and the old boy responded so well we didn't put him down. I feel blessed to have had the extra two weeks. He was doing great, for him, didn't seem to be in any pain just slow moving. The cough had mostly subsided.
Wednesday night he got lethargic and didn't want to get up. By 10 pm he could not get up on his own. I carried him out to use the bathroom several times. By 3 am he was starting to breath shallow and I knew the end was near. I didn't sleep a wink that night. I stayed curled up with him stroking his belly and telling him he was a good boy. I called the vet at 7 am and took him at 8 when they opened. He passed as I carried him in. Right to the last minute he was looking out for me so id never have to second guess if I had more time. The pain is way more than I anticipated. The sense of loss overwhelming. little reminders which are everywhere bring tears to my eyes. The void of his footsteps no longer following me everywhere I go and not being able to be comforted by his gaze is something that is going to take a long time to move past. It is very surreal that he is no longer my constant companion. Trying to focus on the good times And cherish the bond we shared.
RIP Jake- 1/17/2001-2/27/14-you will always hold a special place in my heart