Hi everyone, I haven't been around much lately but the latest update on Boscoe is very bad. He went into the emergency vet last night where he stayed and will probably be there until Friday, Lord-willing. His kindey values are so high they are absolutely off the charts. He's lethargic, vomiting, so weak he can't walk more than a step or two at a time. This hit very suddenly. But I feel horrible because when I started my new job he got a little mopey and I wrote it off as separation anxiety because I had been with him everyday for 3 1/2 months. And he was still eating and wanting to play. I feel horrible I wasn't pushing for more meds and fluids and was so worried about money that I let him get this far. The emergency vet says even if the IV fluids get his numbers down to where he can come home and start sub-q fluids, they are so bad they will probably spike way back up fast after he is off the IV. She thinks he's in the end stage and his little body can't compensate anymore. I feel horrible for letting how he acted dictate how I treated him I should have done more even though he was feeling ok. I should have done whatever it took and not cared about the money. I don't know how I am going to do it if I have to put him down. I called them this morning and they said he felt a tiny bit better but vomited 3 times, they gave him an injection for the nausea and he vomited twice after that still. He's in so much pain and we had to carry him in. I failed my little boy. I had to leave him in a cage there and walk away while he looked at me wondering where I was going. He usually sleeps on my clothes and now all he has is an unfamiliar blanket with all these people and dogs and cats he doesn't know. I am going to see him tonight after work. I'm waiting for him to tell me what to do. My brother and his girlfriend and I all cried so hard when we left him last night and said our goodbyes just in case. I don't know if he can fight anymore. I don't know if I can fight anymore.
Sorry for the depressing story guys I just knew everyone's been there following our story and I don't know if this is the last chapter or not.