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Those involved in personal attacks in this thread....issue more and your account will be read only.
No PM's are to be sent to me. Be accountable for your actions please.
I predict some banned accounts within the next few days.
Please prove me wrong.
Chris
"You do not win field trials by being able to do every drill in the book perfectly. It is about the end product."
and of course, as usual, i am the only offender....
i wholly apologize for any personal attacks on dnf777. he certainly doesnt deserve it and has never said anything personal to me. whatever got in to me to be such a bully to him?
and i dont recall many comments to yardley, but he sure attacks me at every chance in defense of dave. obviously my fault as well.
i apologize guys. i am clearly out of line.
DG, nobody singled you out. You, Chris, and everyone here knows that you aren't the only one out of line on this thread.
You aren't going to play the victim card are you? How lefty of you!![]()
stan b
SR-HR-UH-Field of Dreams Mr. Elvis
"Don't give up.....don't ever give up!!!"
Jimmy V
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"Do not go where the path may lead, go instead where there is no path and leave a trail."
Ralph Waldo Emerson
I know exactly how you mean dnf777. I had a very good friend named David Premo. He was a wonderful feller who took the tying of fishing flies to an art form. We hunted and trout fished all over the state of Vermont. We were co-workers. One February evening, he did his Wife’s taxes, paid all the bills and put stamps on the envelopes. And shot himself in the head with the 10-22 that I had given him for his birthday. After when all was said and done, as the gun was purchased by me. The police asked me if I wanted it back. Only time I’ve ever cursed at a law enforcement officer! Even years later, thinking about him typing this I hate him. It destroyed his Father and Mother. His wife is still just never the same. The hurt…… It just well sucks. And to David G. Yes I do blame it all on him. Absolutely all every bit on him.
One time David G., Just after July 4th 1985 I slipped and fell mowing the lawn at dusk on a steep hill. Chopped up both feet pretty good. Still have all my toes thank you Dr. Blackman and team. Few weeks after when I was out of the hospital and could drive I went to work to get my pay and while I was gone my house burned down killing my Grandfather and my dog and leaving me homeless and with only the clothes on my back and unemployed because of my chopped up feet. I had my truck and 1 weeks pay. Oh of course there was a shotgun in the truck.
I came so close………………………..
But I thought I would wait a day.
Twenty-five years later, when I lay down to sleep I think about that. Every night, and smile to myself thinking, “”Made it through another day!” And am so happy I let myself live!!!
So yes David, both the Kid in the news, and my very good friend David Premo.
I do directly blame them. It is a choice.
If a week ass punk like me can make it through one more day to another to another to another. Then anyone can.
And p.s. David,
I also feel you have been a wee bit rude, of late.
Is everything all right?
.
"So what is big is not always the Trout nor the Deer but the chance, the being there. And what is full is not necessarily the creel nor the freezer, but the memory." ~ Aldo Leopold
"The Greatest Obstacle to Discovery is not Ignorance -- It is the Illusion of Knowledge" ~ Daniel Boorstin
I once asked a friend why she had tried to kill herself many years ago. She said her pain was so great that she was not thinking of anyone but herself.
I have never had that kind of mental/emotional pain so I can't judge her. I understand her pain but have not had it just had physical pain ( ruptured disk in my back was the worst I ever encountered I think ). I guess there is a big difference.
Jeez, Ken, that's quite a load.
I'm bewildered by the actions people take in their last moments. Paying bills, stamping envelopes....as if any of that matters in light of what they're about to do....yet it seems to. The young man in the news took the time to set his cell phone and wallet on the bridge. To a rational mind, who would give a crap about a phone and wallet if you're about to take a swan off the bridge? (rational mind, in context only) Many people clean their house first.
I hope I didn't sound cold in my comments. I think you understand perfectly what I meant. I don't love him any less, I just hate him for what he did. Make sense?
And for what its worth, I'm damn glad you saw fit to stick it out! Many in your situation wouldn't have. My old surgery chief would tell us when someone was about to quit and leave the program, "the same pounding that shatters glass, hardens steel". I've reminded myself of that many times over the years.
on to more cheerful subjects........
dave
God Bless PFC Jamie Harkness. The US Army's newest PFC, but still our neighbor's little girl!
This turned into one of the most interesting threads I've read around here. I know the feeling you guys have about the selfishness of suicide. Several years back, a man at work went home and shot himself in the head in front of his 4 year old son. No one else was home and it was several hours before his wife came home to find the mess. I didn't know him well personally, but people who did were shocked. I remember at that time realizing how selfish an act suicide was. Kind of like the final decisive blow a coward can inflict on those he decides he wants to hurt.
But to me this story was different. Is different. The act that drove this kid to suicide was so malicious it transcends reason. In this kids case, I don't get the feeling he killed himself to hurt others. I think he probably felt like his life was ruined by the horrific actions of those that attacked him. And it was an attack. A malicious hateful attack. I'm guessing he felt trapped. And that his only out was that bridge.
"So what is big is not always the Trout nor the Deer but the chance, the being there. And what is full is not necessarily the creel nor the freezer, but the memory." ~ Aldo Leopold
"The Greatest Obstacle to Discovery is not Ignorance -- It is the Illusion of Knowledge" ~ Daniel Boorstin