[RemsBPJasper]

Hi everyone, I haven't been around much lately but the latest update on Boscoe is very bad. He went into the emergency vet last night where he stayed and will probably be there until Friday, Lord-willing. His kindey values are so high they are absolutely off the charts. He's lethargic, vomiting, so weak he can't walk more than a step or two at a time. This hit very suddenly. But I feel horrible because when I started my new job he got a little mopey and I wrote it off as separation anxiety because I had been with him everyday for 3 1/2 months. And he was still eating and wanting to play. I feel horrible I wasn't pushing for more meds and fluids and was so worried about money that I let him get this far. The emergency vet says even if the IV fluids get his numbers down to where he can come home and start sub-q fluids, they are so bad they will probably spike way back up fast after he is off the IV. She thinks he's in the end stage and his little body can't compensate anymore. I feel horrible for letting how he acted dictate how I treated him I should have done more even though he was feeling ok. I should have done whatever it took and not cared about the money. I don't know how I am going to do it if I have to put him down. I called them this morning and they said he felt a tiny bit better but vomited 3 times, they gave him an injection for the nausea and he vomited twice after that still. He's in so much pain and we had to carry him in. I failed my little boy. I had to leave him in a cage there and walk away while he looked at me wondering where I was going. He usually sleeps on my clothes and now all he has is an unfamiliar blanket with all these people and dogs and cats he doesn't know. I am going to see him tonight after work. I'm waiting for him to tell me what to do. My brother and his girlfriend and I all cried so hard when we left him last night and said our goodbyes just in case. I don't know if he can fight anymore. I don't know if I can fight anymore.

Sorry for the depressing story guys I just knew everyone's been there following our story and I don't know if this is the last chapter or not.

Thank you.

Kourtney

 

[Goldenboy]

Kourtney,

Now is not the time for second guessing. You are an extraordinarily caring person who has always acted, and will continue to act, in Boscoe's best interest. I will be thinking positive thoughts for you and your boy.

Mark

 

[Buzz]

Kourtney,

I can't imagine how you must feel, but I don't think you're being fair to yourself. I'll be praying for you and Bosco.

Dave

 

[Lesa Cozens Dauphin]

Kourtney,

You are in my thoughts and prayers. Please don't second guess yourself. You everything you could do.

lesa c

 

[Fire Angel]

Kourtney,
I'm sorry to hear the bad news,I will be praying for Boscoe. I believe that you have always acted in Boscoe's best interest, so you can not beat your self up over this. Take Care and God Bless!

 

[Ron Schuna]

You've done right by Boscoe

Kourtney,

You have done right by your little guy. Boscoe has been dealt a tough hand and you have given all that can be given. My prayers are with you and your family through this tough time and I hope Mr. Boscoe pulls through.

Ron

 

[2tall]

Oh Kourtney, my heart is breaking for you. No one, ever, has tried as hard as you have to do all the right things. Following all your stories from the onset of the illness, the incredible amount of research, special foods, 24/7 devotion to all of Boscoes needs, I have been awed by your efforts. And throughout it all you have known the outlook was not good but that did not stop you or even hold you back from every possible treatment and care you could provide. I am praying with every ounce of effort I can for a good outcome for Boscoe, but even more for you if there is not.

Please keep your family close to you and let them support you through this. Try to ease up on yourself, we need your good spirits and humor here at RTF!

Indy and I will be thinking of you and Boscoe, I promise.

 

[Polock]

Kourtney, I know how attached you and Boscoe are, and it hurts to have you and the little guy going through this kind of suffering..........

Wendy and my prayers are with you both, and the door is always open...............should you need to talk

You and Boscoe have both worked hard to get to the present level of training.....................hopefully Boscoe will have a full rcovery and his training can continue.............

A pat on the head for Boscoe from me when ya see him next............. :wink:

 

[Devlin]

Kourtney, your post is heartbreaking...not just for Boscoe, but even more so for you. Worry is understandable, deep concern is appropriate, but blaming yourself simply isn't fair. We don't necessarily like the hand we're dealt, but we have to play the cards we get. Don't be so incredibly hard on yourself...let's all put our mental energy into good thoughts and wishes for Boscoe, and for you!

 

[spaightlabs]

You've gone above and beyond for the little guy - we should all be so lucky that we get that kind of care and love if we get ill.

when the time comes to trust him to the Lord's care until you can meet with him again, you'll know.

Godspeed to you, your family and your little man.

 

[Old School Labs]

Kourtney,
You have not failed your pup, now or ever. You have shown more compasion than some other would have. I can only hope and pray that he comes around. If not, know that you have taken great care of him, and remember all the good times with Boscoe.

Mark
Casey

 

[Hope]

just remember

Its all about Bosco you need to continue to keep his best interest at heart. I myself am dealing with a Rotty that I have had since my divorce she was there when no one else was around she was my saving grace. Now after a number of large vet bills we have determined that nothing more can be done except to keep her comfortable and when we can no longer do that we owe it to her to do the most difficult thing and that is to give her the peace she deserves. You are in my prayers
Wayne

 

[Boondux]

I am so sorry Kourtney. Please don't blame yourself - you have tried so hard to help Boscoe through all this. You are a very caring individual and my thoughts are with you through this.

Carrie

 

[Trevor Toberny]

so sorry

 

[badbullgator]

Hoping for the best for you

 

[Andy Carlson]

Kourtney I am so sorry to hear that Boscoe is not doing well. I know how hard you have tried to do the best for him. And most importantly, Boscoe knows how much you love him. I'll be saying a prayer for you both.

Andy

 

[ErinsEdge]

Kourtney,
So sorry about your boy. Kidney disease is different than many other conditions because dogs can appear pretty well and crash overnight. It has happened to me 3 times, and each time I thought I missed something and thought they were doing ok. Don't blame yourself-it's just that they are Labs and stoic. You are doing your best for him and he knows it.

 

[The Snows]

Kourtney,

We are so sorry to hear this news about Boscoe. From your e-mails you have certainly done everything you could for him. Let's hope this is just a bump in the road and things will look better for the two of you.

Our thoughts are with you both.

Sue & Chris

 

[RemsBPJasper]

Thank you all for the well wishes, thoughts, and prayers. I have stopped blaming myself after another visit and speaking with the emergency vet again. It's just very hard not to think "what if." After seeing him last night the decision as it stands at this moment is that he will be let go tonight after another visit. He has no fight left in him. He is on fluids enough for 3 dogs his size. He is on two anti-nausea meds, one that is also a sedative used for cancer. And he is basically on a morhpine drip. With all of this he has not made significant improvement and is still very uncomfortable and not resting well. He was able to walk into the room to see us last night but then had to be helped down and fell fast asleep. It was like he knew I was there so it was ok to relax and sleep now. This will be excruciating and I want to thank everyone for being there with us through this all. He is my boy and he can't fight anymore. I will update again when I can. Thank you. Kourtney

 

[kjrice]

Sorry for your loss.